You steezin I'm steezin but yo style is wack

i finally feel like im getting back on track again

its one of the best feelings.

ive cut out all the negativity in my life, i signed up for classes, i have a job, im taking a break on some drugs, and im finishing court next wednesday.

as much as it scares me how different my life is going to be in a week, im glad to finally get started.

i also figured out what i want.

i accepted that im in love, and now i will do anything to win him back.

i told him ill wait as long as it takes and that i dont even want a relationship right now. i want to wait until i can give him the best possible me. he seems doubtful, but thats always been how we are. i have always been the hopeful optimistic. we became friends before anything, which makes a connection on a different level. 

i may feel lonely and sad most of the time, but at least im working towards some sort of real happiness and stability.